LOST
Lost in this world
Never to understand
What their talking about
What will suffice

Who are you,
Who am I
Where do we live
What do we see

Confusing in your words
Muffled as they are spoken
Questioned what they mean
Thinking why am I chosen

To be with you here
And to see you now
To what reason am I here
And why need I be

I'm lost.
 
 
 

AMUSING ANGER
You think your so bad
You think your strong
You think I am afraid
Your sadly wrong

Asking for fights
Asking for blood
Asking for fear
Your words mean none

Laughing at your words
Laughing at your face
Laughing at your friends
For your foolish mistake

I could kick you down
I could beat your friends
I could swallow your words
With no one to defend

I choose to be peaceful
I choose to talk
I choose to keep anger
I never fought
 
 

DECEPTION OF YOU
Deprived in your emotions
Afraid of the truth
Defending nothing
Stupidity of youth

Blind with hate
And petty jealousy
Never seeing life
As it was meant to be

Following the crowd
Lost as a bat
Surrounded by a crowd
yet none is known

Seeing images
Thinking their faces
Not seeing the masks
That lie beneath them

Sorry for your ignorance
Pity for your belief
Weakness in your eyes
Not wanting them to see.
 
 
 
 

THE MASK THAT I LOVE
(Dedicated to my best friend Sara-Jane)

Walking down through the crowd
Seeing people talk and whisper
Never knowing who I am
Never giving a damn

I'll stick to myself
Forever in secret
No one to know me
Except one who means it

Rumors spread about
Leaching with no truth
Laughing at the irony
Of the stupidity of youth.

You may think you know me
You may think I’m here
You may think I’m no one
But its you who is not hear.
 
 
 

PAIN IN MY HEART
Darkness seeps through
The confused rage
Sharp dagger in my hand
The blade gives a glare

Slipping slowly
Into eternal hate
Wanting the pain
I have to await.

Skinning slowly
Cutting so smooth
Blood slowly drips
On the flesh of the wound

The pain so good
Sharp as the knife
Shocks going down
It feels so right.

The pulse pumps the blood
Out of my arm
Veins running dry
Never releasing a cry.

Tears flow down
Ever so lightly
Pain in my heart
Slowly dying.
 
 
 

PAIN
Awaiting in my soul
Awaiting in my mind
Awaiting in my mind
Awaiting yet to be foretold.

Pain from your words
Fear in your eyes
Strength in myself
My emotion cries

Sadness on  my face
And in my being
Confusion with my self
Never learning.

I keep to myself
None to enter
To give the pain
I will never surrender.
 
 
 

DECEPTION
Thinking I know you
Thinking you knew me
Laughing that you don't
Laughing, just let me be.

Deception of your friends
Deception of your family
Deception of yourself
Loosing too many

Wishing you were somewhere else
Wishing I was different
Wishing I never felt this
Wishing I found you magnificent.
 
 
 

YOU
Watching you grow
Knowing what you've become
Regretting knowing you
Regretting giving love.

Pretending to care
Pretending to think
Pretending to be you
Never letting you blink.

You think you’re better
You think you've improved
You think I’m less
Your self forever removed.

Following nothing
Following none
Following confusing
Following persuasion.
 
 
 
 

REVOLTING FANTASY
It comes to me as in a dream
As to be redeem
Why to be, why to me?
To see this revolting fantasy.

A bloody corps leaks through the floor,
Seeping out the bedroom door
Thick and black streaming down
Never wanted to be found

Angels of death touch his eyes
Looking empty into mine
Why to be, why to me?
To see this revolting fantasy.
 
 
 
 

VIEW
Wanting
Luring
Hating
Feeling to die

Body
Blood
Veins
Pulse beats so loud

Wanting to kill
Luring to die
Hating everyone
Feeling their crimes

Blood pours out
Veins are popped
Pulse no more
My death doesn't count.
 
 
 
 

CIRCLE OF DEATH
As darkness falls I see the light
Coming through the evening night
Vampires rolling down the street
Killing all they may meet

A tender touch, a swift bite,
As they suck the victims life.
Draining, draining till its gone
The poison of death has begun

The vampires blood rich and thick
Goes through the victim’s body quick
Turning, swirling it does not end
Till the victim is undead

The senses pounding, the victim’s urging
For the taste of new blood lurking
The sounds of mice, the smell of blood
Raging, raging, it has begun!
 
 
 

TRADER
They smile at me as if they’re true
Talking and laughing u think they knew
Traders liar’s everywhere
Walking around but no one cares
Demeaning and vulturous that’s all they are
Reality and them are so far
Pretend to fit where you don’t
I’ll never do that, I just won’t
Not to be, not to me
To lie to cheat deny defeat
You will always be giving me heat
No matter what I will not go
To be like them, I don’t think so
Go away and don’t come back
Do you’re dope and tons of crack
I’ll be here the rest of my life
But hey, at least I have it right!
 
 
 
 
 

SICKENING STEREO-TYPE
Sweet, cute
I’ll put on mute
Darling, Honey
Give me money
Baby, chick
Lets see a flick
Slutt, whore
Give me more
It never stops
You can’t run
From a man
With a gun
Whining, crying
Weak, poor
All these names
And there’s more
Sugar, Pumpkin
Am I food?
Damn boy that is rude,
Never ever
Do I hear
Anything but
Oh my dear
A lady, a priss
When we’re dating
Well than ass
I’m fucking Satan
Don’t call me sweets
Don’t call me Hun
I’m sick of you
You better run!
 
 
 

DEATH COMES FOR ME
a darkness seeps threw my soul
never know what’s been told
seeing you lying there
it can’t be it can’t, its just not fair
knowing knowing death is hear
makes me die in fear.
listening as shadows pass
just dying to kick your ass
step by step they come for me
dying dying I want to be
the life is sucked out slowly but gone
seem like paradise has begun!
 
 
 
 
 

KILLING THE HATED
Streaming through to blissid dark
Running running through the park

Can’t seem to run can’t seem to hide
Thinking thinking my minds a blank

Stabbing stabbing the sharp blade strikes
Crushing her skull with bloody spikes

Lying there gleaming down
The fucking whore never found

Hating, waiting for hell to rise
As her bloody corpse there lies

Sharp pain through the back
Longing for blissful crack

Down down her body falls
"Take that bitch" my mind calls
 
 
 

ASS HOLE IN POWER
Jealousy, vengeance
Money, greed

In this World you’ll never see
The reality between you and me

Hating, waiting for you to die
The poor in the gutters cry

Taking, taking till nothings left
Promise, promises never kept

You think we’re blind, You think we’re dumb
Fuck u ass hole, or you’ll be numb!
 
 
 
 
 

HATE BENEATH THE SKIN
She comes out of the darkness
as though were a dream
That seeps in your skin
And makes you scream

Filled with hate
deep in your soul
Pain in your emotions
Evil in your thoughts

Lust for another
That yurns for her
Death on the mind
 There is no cure

Starring her down
like the wild bore she is
Waiting to move
Wanting to be his

Approaching her softly
With a dagger in your hand
A blade that’s sharp
Wanting it to end

Slitting her throat
With such an ease
Watching her die
A slow decease

The joy of watching
The happiness it brings
The pain in his eyes
From the body that lies

The anger is gone
The lure is there
The hate has left
There is no one there

Falling down
Like there’s no end
Feeling the pain that will never mend
Ending the hate by forever being bound
To a girl never more found
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

WATCH OUT FOR THE DARK
The darkened sky falls
The depth of hate in my soul arises
Listening an waiting for day to break
Wishing and hoping that it won’t be late

Smelling the blood seeking through
Seeing the corpses lying like the dead do
Sinking inside no where to run
Hiding in a corner where it all begun

Sinking in fear with death around
Knowing that my life will be taken
Knives and guns the devils signature
All I wish for now is to awaken

From the darkness of the night
To the dawning of the sun
With serpents of the night
It has begun

From death do us part
That should never be
Because by that vow
By night shall I never see

The evil approaches
The smell of death
The sickness in my stomach
The creature crept

The knife hot and sharp
Blood pouring out
And out of my mouth
The words I whisper. .
"Watch out for the dark"
 
 
 
 

DOUBLE FACED
He smiles at me
Makes me see
The mask he wears
When around me

Wanting me
Just to be
A figment
Of his imagination

Asking for lust
Before knowing
Thinking I’m easy
Treating me like a whore

His mask comes off
I see him now
Treating Me bad
He’s never more.
 
 
 

HEART STANDS STILL
Running so fast
You cannot see
The love that you
Have taken from me

Heart stops beating
I hear no sound
I see no light
Nothings to be found

The anger in me grows
In my eyes it then shows
The hate in my soul
Love is now nevermore

Blood on your hands
To kill is so grand
To see the life
Fallout of your eyes.

Lying there
With no care
Siting alone
Filled with despair.
 
 
 
 

FOOLISH PRIDE
You wear the label
You wear an opinion
You support the greed
Of the racist people

You think you’re "cool"
you think you’re "good"
You think you’re "hot"
Your such a fool

Acting all bad
Thinking its grand
But in my eyes
Your just sad

You do the drugs
You go into gangs
You shoot down a child
With no remains

You’ve done these things
You still don’t see
That in this life
You’ll always be lower than me!
 
 
 
 

APPARENT RELIGION
You believe in you’re God
You believe in your book
You believe in you’re self
Your a sick disgrace

Hating the different
Hating the odd
Hating the original
Being in demand

Knowing your false
Knowing your wrong
Knowing your crewel
Your faith is gone

Sinning again
Against your "faith"
Sinning again
The great disgrace

Don’t talk to me
Or try to convert
To try to change
What you have hurt.
 
 

LEAVE ME ALONE
Walking alone
Yet millions around
Screaming Inside
No where to be found

Wanting to be
Not allowed to be me
Hating the famous
Hating the popular
Hating the rich
That are never more

Sick with discus
Sick with hate
Sick with love
Sick of you, you ingrate

Never enough
Never good
Never do
And never you

Being in the dark
Being in the streets
Being in a coffin
Forever more
 
 
 
 
 

LOOSING THE FIGHT
Awaiting alone
None around
Feeling week
Falling to the ground.

Hearing voices
Whisper in my mind
Over powering me
Wanting to die.

Loving the darkness
Hating the light
Closing my eyes
Loosing the fight.

Yelling so loud
Echoes in my head
Voce is gong
My soul not fed.

Lying on my bed
Wishing of a life
Wishing of a dream
Loosing the fight.
 
 
 
 

DESIRE
The pain of his words
The hurt in his eyes
The lure in his heart
His soul then dies

The love now hate
The hate now fear
The fear now longing
Longing to be near

Wanting her love
Wanting her touch
Wanting his life
Its just not enough

The hurt of rejection
The pain of a broken heart
The envy of the winner
Who now holds him nearer
 
 
 

SURROUNDED
Pain in my soul
Like a sharp knife
Stabbing me down
This endless fight

Yelling for help
Screaming so loud
Many around
But never hearing

Stomach twisting
Muscles aching
Mind racing
Its never-ending

Hating Hate
Fearing fear
Longing love
Never wanting to be found

Surrounding by all
Feels like non
Deeper the pain
Further the restrain

Sinking below
Growing deeper
Drowning in despite
Loosing all my might.
 
 
 

OUR WORLD IS COMMING TO AN END.
Violent tempers
Roam the streets
Watching over us
Quickly retreats

Scent of blood
The view of red
The pain of knives
In the streets leg

Wanting to surrender
Into deep nothingness
To see pain not
To relieve sight

Ghetto to rich
Rich to poor
Pure to violent
Never more

Help in our world
Coming to an end
Created by ourselves
Never to mend.
 
 
 

DRINKING AND DRIVING
Day Becomes dark
The night is clear
Drink after drink
The end is near.

Music so loud
Thunders in my ear
Head throbs of liquor
Down my throat.

Intoxicated as usual
Of everyone around
Picking up the keys
About to drive down.

Pausing for a moment
Yet seems like forever
Wondering what could happen
Nothing however…

The tail lights gaze
Up from the depths
From a bloody corpse
The stench then crepths.

I should have called my mom
I should have called my dad,
I should have called a taxi
Or else I wouldn’t be dead.
 
 
 

RACISM
You talk to me
As if I’m dumb
Think I’m simple
Or some stupid bum.

You call me names
And throw hard fists,
You think I’m nothing
Another immigrant on your list.

Well I’m stronger then you
I’m smarter as well
I respect those around me
You can go to hell.

From black to white
Or purple to gray,
There is no difference
We’re all the same.

We’re all like one
From blood and bones
Brains and broad,
We’ll never go.
 

PAIN YOU TAUGHT
You want my heart
And to lean on you
You say you love me
But your heart is untrue.

Ignorant to see the truth
And not to want
To say "I love you"
Something you were taught.

Don’t confuse my thoughts
And tease my emotions
For what you say
Creates all the explosions.

Never again
Will I let myself
Fall in love
Or give my trust.

My heart is torn
There is no release
If I let tears show
The pain will increase.

Missing your eyes
With truth of care
To miss your touch
That used to be there.

You played my being
And true self
Thank you for the lesson
Of pain you have taught.
 
 
 

BULL SHIT
You say you love me
You say you can trust
I tell you the truth
But you always bust.

You blame me for shit
You accuse me of nothing
You make me feel like nothing
You make me feel evil.

Why do you accuse?
Why do you blame?
Why do you get this way?
When I am honest to my name.

You don’t understand
The hurt that causes
The pain inside
That you created.